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muninsong ([personal profile] muninsong) wrote2010-04-21 09:58 am

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There are times I questions the decisions I've made. Today, I'm questioning them a lot.

My job was burning me out, causing me to stress to the point of feeling ill and run down no matter what I did. I would cry at the thought of having to go back after a day off. I snapped at Piper all the time, and all my friends and family told me I'd become short tempered and spiteful; some even called me downright mean.

That's not like me.

I went and put in applications for new jobs. Things that would be better for me; that I'd be happier at. When my boss found out, she cut my hours from 40 to 12. That's right. Two days a week six hours a day, and on those days, she'd find a reason to send me home early, usually blaming business being slow. I can't survive on that and I told her so. She informed me that my hours would remain cut until I decided to 'be loyal' again. Of course, I snapped and lost it and ended up quitting. Keep in mind that THIS is the woman that demanded that we work off the clock if we didn't finish our work within our scheduled shift. She doesn't care. She never has, but we all put up with it because we felt sorry for her and because we knew jobs were very hard to come by.

... was I wrong in doing so? I know I have to think of Piper but since I've been away from there, she's even been happier since I've been in a better mood. She loves having me home to cook since when I have time, I cook from scratch. It's how I was taught. Our apartment is cleaner now than when we moved in.

The problem is simple. I've put myself out there for employers and so far, nothing. Interviews, sure, but no 'haaaay we looove you can we hire you plz'.

I don't have to worry about rent since I'd saved enough to pay for a year (yay go me). That's not due again to March of next year, but.... I'd like to keep my lights on, please. A phone is a good thing too, and yes, we need the internet since Piper has to do a good deal of work on the computer now that she's in AP classes.

There are some days I feel that I just can't win.
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[identity profile] esotaria.livejournal.com 2010-04-21 03:08 pm (UTC)(link)
*HUGS* For what it's worth, I think you made the right choice. You were as prepared as you could possibly be for the position you're now in -- a year's worth of rent is awesome -- and being happier, and thus making Piper happier, is a good thing. Things will work out.

*sends awesome job-getting vibes your way*


Let me know if there's anything I can do to help. ♥

[identity profile] sound0fdrums.livejournal.com 2010-04-21 04:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm glad someone thinks so. I'm still so... i dunno. Weird about it still. I even feel a little guilty for leaving her in a lurch, since it means everyone else working there has to pick up my slack.

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[identity profile] esotaria.livejournal.com 2010-04-21 04:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, that's a sucky position to be in. But your mental health comes first, especially with a dependent in the equation.

[identity profile] sound0fdrums.livejournal.com 2010-04-21 04:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I figure Piper and I are gonna be financially okay for the next month, but after that will be kinda squeaky.

.... is it stupid that I'm not looking forward to telling my parents when they get back from vacation? I mean, I'm HOW OLD again? *headdesk*
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[identity profile] esotaria.livejournal.com 2010-04-21 04:34 pm (UTC)(link)
You may have grown up, but I doubt parents ever seen their children as "grown ups". *patpatpat* So no, not stupid at all.

[identity profile] sound0fdrums.livejournal.com 2010-04-21 04:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank God, because I am really freaking nervous.

[identity profile] in-the-blue.livejournal.com 2010-04-21 04:11 pm (UTC)(link)
What a bitch-ass that ex-boss is. I don't know, but that behavior sounds so totally unethical to me that there might be grounds for some sort of action there. I'm not a lawyer, though.

[identity profile] sound0fdrums.livejournal.com 2010-04-21 04:16 pm (UTC)(link)
It is, and I could turn her in to the local labor group. If I did (and I'm still thinking about it), I know she'd end up fired and the home company would end up paying all back wages and fines. The main reason I'm actually thinking of NOT doing it is because I still have friends there and she'd make their lives hell before she left, if she figured out that I was the one that turned her in.

[identity profile] in-the-blue.livejournal.com 2010-04-21 04:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, there's always a catch. The flip side of it is how miserable is she making everyone even if you don't do it, and how long will she be allowed to get away with this shit? If she did it to you, she's done it and will do it to other people.

That stated, I'm always a big fan of quitting jobs when they start giving us nightmares. It sounds like that was the right thing to do. It's just a shitty time to survive without a paycheck. Something will come along because it always does. It just might take time.

[identity profile] sound0fdrums.livejournal.com 2010-04-21 04:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks to some... creative budgeting, I figure Piper and I can go for a month. I've got one more check coming next week and the bills paid until the middle of next month. If it comes down to it, I can always apply for unemployment and go back to school while I'm doing that, but that's my last option.

[identity profile] ajremix.livejournal.com 2010-04-21 06:12 pm (UTC)(link)
I'd suggest talking to your friends there about it because that shit don't fly, if you ask me. Of course, I don't know the entire situation or their own feelings, but I'd rather go through some amount of hell if it meant in the end people got the respect and treatment they deserved. I mean really- if she treats the employees like that, I can't imagine the customers are treated like they should be, either.

On the other subject, I think it's a very good idea for you to have quit. You're happier, Piper's happy and you've got enough to support you at least for some time. I'm certain you'll find a job, it just may take a bit is all <3

[identity profile] chatona.livejournal.com 2010-04-21 08:08 pm (UTC)(link)
I think it was the right choice. Your ex-boss sounds absolutely terrible terrible terrible.